As much as I have time, I have been having a lot of moments when I just sit around, feel paralysed and yea..perhaps feeling a bit down sometimes.
I've always believed that people tend to be slightly sadistic? It always dawns on me why I relate more to pain and hurt more than joy and happiness. Then I look around and realise that it's not just me. It's a lot of people. I guess that's why sad films tend to be the ones in the Oscars..they are the ones to which more people like those boring Oscars people can relate? haha
I have been fighting an internal battle too between thinking my life is miserable and that it is actually quite fruitful and fulfilling. As much as I can easily think of reasons why it is good, I can also see flashes or reasons of why it sucks..haha and usually the sad moments seem to stand out more..strangely. It's just like how easy it is for us to find faults in service/people...and now it seems to work on ourselves too. :P
Somewhere in every aspect of our lives, there always seem to be an imperfection. As much As we would like to say Life is not perfect, it is inevitable that we still do get bothered by it, be the imperfection be our pessimism, our eagerness to make that aspect better or simply because there IS a prominent issue there.
Quarrels, disagreements always pop up in our lives and as much as we tell ourselves to just let it go once it is okay, it would still be a lie for us to say that they did not even leave the slightest scar/mark. All I can tell myself is God gives us perfect flawless skin since birth so that there is space for all these marks/scars for us to carry throughout our lives, serving nothing more than reminders like 'hey I've gotten so many and am still breathing? Why the heck not one more?' (for those of my friends who are christians/catholics, please understand this does not have any religious implication. I am talking about God in general)
In relationships, I always believe disagreement is simply Life's indicator for us if the other person is here to stay or for play. It depends on how you look at it - a depressant, a challenge or simply just part of life.
As for joy, why let the world or say fashion industry or even Oscars or Hollywood tell us what defines OUR happiness? Only we know because only we feel it. One man's food is another man's poison. If you have been an individual with a mind of your own and clear of what defines joy to you, why doubt it now?
Like Gump said "Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you will get". When we do get a new flavour or sensation in our mouth, it depends on ourselves if we still want to open ourselves up to a new taste and savour in joy, spit it out and start cursing the damn chocolate shop or simply bite it bit by bit and get accustomed to it slowly.
What is your take?
